Do you ever go along, thinking everything’s fine, only to find out everything’s a mess? For example, your daughter is quietly watching Mulan in her room. She’s actually playing with her puzzles and dolls by herself. This is a good thing. You go in to check on her after a while, and all those good feelings you had vanish in less than ten seconds. This happens when you realize she’s somehow climbed up on the chair and taken the vaseline off the changing table. And now, your pretty pink glider is covered in vaseline. Along with a pink pillow, your daughter’s face, and her clothes. And now you yourself are covered in vaseline since you had to clean it up. And you can feel yourself on the brink of a meltdown.
I’m guessing we all experience these kinds of things. So you push away the meltdown feelings and decide just to be silent for a while. (Even if Ash is not affected by the silent treatment whatsoever.) You know, that whole idea of centering yourself? Calming yourself down? I really need to know how long centering takes. Because I’ve been doing it for a while and don’t feel all that centered yet. Hopefully soon.